Conversation with James, brother of Jesus - May 2009

We ask how James spends his day
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I have tasks to do
There is much to learn
I have confusion
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I am told many things by many different people
Dangerous times
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We ask who James fears
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There are many people
I have an area of safety
Many areas where I can’t go
I listen
I keep my own council
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That must be hard
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It’s what I’m used to
There are many people who believe in the old ways, the old religion
There are many people who follow different religions, different ways
We are not free to speak and feel as we would wish
We follow what is in our hearts
We do not make images as in the old ways
There are those that are sad
Because I do not wish to follow that any longer
I follow the ways of love
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Where did you learn these ways?
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From my brother
From those who also listen to his words
They are written in my heart
It’s painful
Those – many – who don’t understand
There is such an aura of love around him
It’s difficult to understand
People just don’t see that
They fear it
They think he’s trying to do something
To control them
They fear what is love
The energy, boundless, boundless love
They are in fear
Because they see their own shadows
They cannot hide
So they attack
He teaches wherever people will listen
It is not so much teaching
As talking with
Showing the way
Discussing
Embracing
Being an example
Answering questions
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Do you understand everything he speaks about?
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It’s as if I am absorbing it
At a level I don’t …..
It’s not like an understanding
It’s like a soaking up
One feels a connection
Sometimes there’s not any words even
And one feels it
And is aware
This is how it is for me
But not everyone
There was a time when I wasn’t ready
It’s just so simple
That is the understanding
If we reach into our hearts
We feel it
We know
It is just a knowing
A feeling
A way of being
But men need words
I know
I am one who has to write
And there are many others
We have to share what we know
We’re all at different levels
Different awareness
We’ll all help each other
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Do we only have one life?
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We have many opportunities
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In fear
And fate
The cloak we put on
In not seeing the light
They do not see themselves
They hate even themselves
Like shadow boxing
If you can imagine
Hands clasped around your heart
Your heart is a special jewel
Your hands can be open
Or they can be closed and squeezed tighter and tighter
When your hands are open
The light shines all around
When the hands are closed and tight it hurts
We have control of our hands
When something hurts or threatens us
We close our hands
We’re keeping that hurt
And that’s all we can feel
We don’t realise that we’re in charge
Jesus wanted us to open those hands
To be free
To shine our lights
But sadly
This has not been the case
When our hands are closed we feel we want to attack
Were actually attacking ourselves
Those hands are ours
And anything is possible
We can create
We can be
We listen to what is truly in our hearts
Jesus knew
That this process would happen (his teachings would be distorted)
That it would be a long time
Before we could
Long, long time before there would be enough people in the world
To help bring this understanding
There would be many lives for those who were there then
Before we could speak out
There have been many of us
And been persecuted
Or failed
Or have not tried
Because of the fear
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There is an evolutionary development
An opening up
A gradual awakening
The connection behind the third eye
The chakra behind the forehead
Will link the understanding between our feeling world
And words will no longer be necessary
We will know
An opening up of that which is within the mind
But there are many parts to play
There are those who bring understanding in other ways
Scientific ways
Which may seem
It may seem they are far away from the truth
So don’t judge
Everything is connected
Just as in Jesus’ times
There were those that had their part to play
It is easier to speak now
Than back in those old times
We had to hide away
To write
To share our knowledge and understanding
I was with Peter many times
And we were in a private room
And he passed on to me - and I wrote
Much of that writing was lost
Or is still hidden
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What Jesus taught is available to us all
We think the words
The written words
But we can link within our hearts
And our feelings
Within our understanding
The feeling
The awareness
The fear and hatred has made enough confusion
Far more complicated than it needs to be
We don’t need words
For many it is important
To help them
But even then they will not believe
They don’t wish to believe
They are just not ready
But at their very core they know
Remember that we are all one
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chuckles
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I see an image
Of someone trying to knock someone else’s teeth out
Because that person said something that offended them
By some words
But it is his own interpretation of his words
As you were talking earlier
We do it to ourselves
We rise up and puff ourselves up in pride and ego
‘How dare you say that to me’
We want to outdo each other
 We want to be special
We want to be the best
There is no such thing
The world is spirit
All are equal
We block each other’s progress
When we react in such a way
The rabbit turns and runs and belts for the bolt hole
To hide in the darkness away from the fear
That’s what we do
Just like the rabbit
We are afraid of our own shadows
We don’t wish to show what we really are
Jesus had no fear
Because he did not have the ego
He did not have the desire to be better or worse than others
He just wished to impart what was in his heart
What was in his soul
He was pure love
And forgiveness
When he turned his eyes upon you
It was like you call in your time ‘zapped’
Hit in the solar plexus
There was immediate recognition
That was what others feared
They feared that they were being shown for what they had become
They could be seen through
It made them frightened and angry
The energy overwhelmed them

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